Struggles and Accountability
Just wanted to share as I have been quiet lately due to not feeling the best about myself the last week or so…
This last Sunday I recognized that I was slipping back into the old me, eating things that were NOT right along with larger amounts that I never thought I would\could having the sleeve.
I found that I was snacking here and there on little things, ex. potato chips or cheese doodles when packing the kids lunch, and cheesecake almost every other night, to name a few things…
I started thinking this was ok because I was having them in moderation (well not the cheesecake and coffee LOL), “Oh it's just a little here” but that turned into “Well it was just today I won’t do it tomorrow” and it just got worse..
By Sunday of last week I was up to 258 lbs from my lowest 245 lbs and luckily it made me realize “What the hell am I doing?!?”
I know most people don’t think you should look at the scale regularly but for me it is what keeps me in check the most…
So what did I do? I went back to basics..
On Monday I weighed in at 258 lbs and decided I needed to make a change, I made the decision to GIVE UP my coffee (was up to 5-6 large iced coffees with cream a day) and the snacking.
I went back the basics, protein drinks and water (LOTS OF WATER), when ever I felt hungry I had a protein drink then water (after 30 minutes)…
At first I thought I am NOT going to be able to do this and almost gave up on the first night, I had what seemed to be MAJOR caffeine withdrawals that night (Splitting headache and extremely tired) and thought I needed to eat something but I pushed through it and funny thing is when I woke up the next morning I realized that I was NOT hungry and was OK with just the water and protein drinks.
I did this for 2 days then on the 3rd day I am still drinking the protein drinks but added back in soft protein (I actually weigh out 2 – 3 oz. grounded up chicken or tuna) and again LOTS OF WATER…
Here I sit at day 4 (following the same plan as day 3) feeling satisfied and not a bit hungry (just like I felt like after the surgery).
I stepped on the scale this morning and saw the results down to 250 lbs. (8 lbs gone in 3 days)…
This tool that I was given works ONLY if I put the work in to use it..
It is SO easy to let my mind play games and fuck me up, I needed (and did) realize it and fight it or I know I will easily fail…
I had the sleeve back in November 2013 and thought for the most part it would cure me of overeating. While it does stop me from eating way more than I should, I still need something to remind me now and then on how to recognize the mental part of it to overcome it.
I know I will go through this time and time again, but I am GLAD I can now see it and do something about it before it gets out of control!
Just wanted to get that off my chest and hopefully it may help someone else see that they are not the only one that goes through something similar to this and that it is possible to get back on track vs. just thinking to themselves “I screwed up!” and letting it go…
Glad to be getting back on track because I REALLY don't EVER want to go back.
This last Sunday I recognized that I was slipping back into the old me, eating things that were NOT right along with larger amounts that I never thought I would\could having the sleeve.
I found that I was snacking here and there on little things, ex. potato chips or cheese doodles when packing the kids lunch, and cheesecake almost every other night, to name a few things…
I started thinking this was ok because I was having them in moderation (well not the cheesecake and coffee LOL), “Oh it's just a little here” but that turned into “Well it was just today I won’t do it tomorrow” and it just got worse..
By Sunday of last week I was up to 258 lbs from my lowest 245 lbs and luckily it made me realize “What the hell am I doing?!?”
I know most people don’t think you should look at the scale regularly but for me it is what keeps me in check the most…
So what did I do? I went back to basics..
On Monday I weighed in at 258 lbs and decided I needed to make a change, I made the decision to GIVE UP my coffee (was up to 5-6 large iced coffees with cream a day) and the snacking.
I went back the basics, protein drinks and water (LOTS OF WATER), when ever I felt hungry I had a protein drink then water (after 30 minutes)…
At first I thought I am NOT going to be able to do this and almost gave up on the first night, I had what seemed to be MAJOR caffeine withdrawals that night (Splitting headache and extremely tired) and thought I needed to eat something but I pushed through it and funny thing is when I woke up the next morning I realized that I was NOT hungry and was OK with just the water and protein drinks.
I did this for 2 days then on the 3rd day I am still drinking the protein drinks but added back in soft protein (I actually weigh out 2 – 3 oz. grounded up chicken or tuna) and again LOTS OF WATER…
Here I sit at day 4 (following the same plan as day 3) feeling satisfied and not a bit hungry (just like I felt like after the surgery).
I stepped on the scale this morning and saw the results down to 250 lbs. (8 lbs gone in 3 days)…
This tool that I was given works ONLY if I put the work in to use it..
It is SO easy to let my mind play games and fuck me up, I needed (and did) realize it and fight it or I know I will easily fail…
I had the sleeve back in November 2013 and thought for the most part it would cure me of overeating. While it does stop me from eating way more than I should, I still need something to remind me now and then on how to recognize the mental part of it to overcome it.
I know I will go through this time and time again, but I am GLAD I can now see it and do something about it before it gets out of control!
Just wanted to get that off my chest and hopefully it may help someone else see that they are not the only one that goes through something similar to this and that it is possible to get back on track vs. just thinking to themselves “I screwed up!” and letting it go…
Glad to be getting back on track because I REALLY don't EVER want to go back.
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